The Chris Casey Experience

Where the hell have I been, you ask? None of your beeswax, I reply.

… Okay, okay. I have this amazing idea for a Web site redesign. I’ve been working on it off and on since even before my last update. Seriously, you guys are gonna plotz (in a good way). I wanted to get that new design up and out there before I resumed updating this site with whatever the heck it is I usually type here. Canning recipes or something. I forget.

Of course, the best laid plans of mice and men often prevent a person from getting Web sites finished in a timely manner. To be honest, the jay-oh-bee has a siphon attached directly to my enthusiasm-for-Web-stuff glands, so when I come home all I want to do is crack open some sitcoms and drool gently on the upholstery. New Web design? Oh yeah yeah I’ll get to that not much left won’t take any time to finish up placating hand gestures

Three-hundred-odd days of hand gestures later, here we are. I really don’t have much left to go on that Web design (honest!) but you’ll just have to bear with me. I’m easily distracted and none too bright. You know, a typical webizen.

Um. Not like you guys, of course. You guys are cool.

Anyway, new site’s a-comin’ one of these days. It’s based on a blogging engine but it’s not a blog … exactly. No more than this page is a blog. Well, maybe a little more. Aww, just wait until you see it, okay?

I’m back. The passing of my mother in January took a lot ouf of me. I’ve been tired all the time, scatter-brained, distracted, hard to concentrate on anything; sort of a cross between depression and ADHD. It wasn’t until April before my wife mentioned that I was acting halfway like my old self, and even then I’d just stop in the middle of things and drop into a blue funk for an hour or so. My wife, already long-suffering, deserves some sort of medal.

I’m probably gonna be a downer for a while yet. If you’ve come here to read something ha-ha funny, like more diatribes about Jay Cronley, you’ll have to wait until I can muster up some ire at his sophomoric writing style, humorless and uninspired subject matter, and poor grasp of paragraphing. Right now, I’m just not really up to it.

If you’d like to read it, I’ve saved my original post about Mom [below]. It’s hard for me to read even now.

In other news: I may start redirecting you guys to another Web site soon. I own about eight URLs and have a pretty nice Web space that has a lot of cool backend options, and yet for some reason I continue to plink around in this pansy Cox space that doesn’t even allow for really basic custom CGI. Laaaaame. So if the two or three of you who have this place bookmarked suddenly find yourselves redirected, don’t panic. Just update your bookmarks like good Interweb citizens and carry on.

So wish me luck as I’m about to enter … the blogosphere. Dun dun dunnnnnnn.

My mother passed away during the night last night. She was 77. The EMTs determined the cause of death as congestive heart failure.

After I got married, she fell in the kitchen, breaking her shoulder. She spent months in and out of hospitals. Her first operation got infected, so they had to excise a large portion of her upper arm bone and replace it with a piece of titanium, which never quite fit right and then IT got infected. She spent a lot of time in the past two or three years on antibiotics which upset her stomach and made it hard to sleep. Over the past couple of weeks, she wasn’t sleeping much if at all, eating very little, and then her feet and ankles started swelling. I had to hound her to call the doctor and make an appointment. She was going to do that first thing tomorrow morning, since her doctor was out of town for the New Year until then. I should have taken her to the emergency room, as we were all worried about her, but she constantly assured me that she was feeling marginally better all the time. I knew she didn’t want me to worry, so I took her at her word.

My mom was always such a huge part of my life that it’s difficult to imagine a world where she’s not right on the other side of the phone or a short drive down the street. She was the only parent I ever knew, since my father died when I was too young to know about it. I love her more than she could ever know. I’ve only ever met one woman as amazing, and she’s sitting behind me ready to jump in and help at an instant’s notice for anything I’d ever want. I hope I can be the kind of husband that warrants a wife this incredible.

The next few weeks will be hard for many reasons, but I know the pain will dull if not fade completely. The hope for a better future lifts the heart out of the utter blackness of despair. Not all the way, but enough. Just enough.

I love you, Mom. I always will. Tell Dad we all say hi.

Do you know what happens when you start developing Web sites? The next thing you know, you have seven or eight vanity sites cluttering up the Internet.

Yes, I just made yet another Web site for myself. I must have a brain problem. In my defense, I did put it on some free Web space that I just picked up … it’s a shame to have something free and not use it, y’know?

So anyway … now I have a blog related to System DL. I’m sure it’ll pall after a few weeks and eventually get deleted. Before that inevitable time, however, you can trot on over to the System DL Developer (NOTE: not anymore, me bucko!) and have a gander around.

Don’t worry, this site isn’t going anywhere. I wouldn’t want to disappoint the three or four of you that come here by accident while searching Google for “game crackz warez” or “gay horse porn bondage role play” or “Jay Cronley”. This means I probably won’t update this site as often. As if that’s even humanly possible. It’s also possible that the synergy of having another site will spur me to update this place more often. Ha! I crack myself up.

Now I just have to sit back and watch my page views soar now that I’ve included the words “porn” and “warez” on it.

Today being “Never Forget” day, I decided to remember to update my Web site. So, um, here we are. How you guys been? Good, good. I’m fine, thanks for asking. Nothing really new. I’m still in the same place, working the same job. Ho hum.

Well, there are two differences: I just got a tablet PC, which is really REALLY cool. And on the other end of the spectrum, my newly divorced brother-in-law is living with us, which is really REALLY lame. We took him in because he literally had no place to go. Now we kinda wish he would find someplace pretty quick. I didn’t realize how much I’d gotten used to walking around in my underwear until he moved in and stopped me from doing it.

Anyway, the tablet’s neat. I use it to sketch and draw as I dream of freedom. Someday. Someday.

Edge-On Gaming Ltd. is on the air! Now at last you have a one-stop shop for all your System DL needs, and if I want to publish something totally different, or even a computer game, I have a place to shill it.

That site again is Edge-On Gaming Ltd. Ask for it by name at the 7-11 or Shakey’s Pizza of your choice. I’m so excited I could pound holes in concrete. I don’t know what the heck I’m talking about either.

This is only a small update, since nothing of any great import has happened to me or to the site over the past month. Work is fine, wife is fine, dog is fine, house is fine, mother was sick recently but is now fine. How are you?

I’ve discovered an amazing games programming language called BlitzBasic which has occupied far too much of my time recently. Besides the link above, there are a couple of other new links to B3D sites on the Links page. I’m also doing a crash course in Milkshape so I can toss out an actual downloadable game one of these days. Blitz may be consuming a large portion of my creative personal time, but it’ll be worth it someday. You’ll see.

I have every intention to work some more on 2100: The New World, as well as putting together the final, final draft of the payware System DL (I now want to publish the player’s guide and GM’s book at the same time, which sets me pretty far back on my plans … sorry) and a pretty big update on MetaHuman DL which I just thought of tonight. All in among the Star Exterminator Movie Project and the two or three different computer games I’m fiddling with. Nothing on this site is ever truly abandoned, even the things I haven’t changed in four years. If I weren’t so lazy, I’d be really really busy.

Well, hello there! We seem to finally be all the way up. I’ll be doing some maintenance work in here, you know, cleaning up my “WE’RE ALL GONNA DIE!” messages from the old site and so on. I’m also just about ready to redesign the whole place over again. A new face for a new URL, don’t’cha know.

If nothing else, all this moving-the-site stuff has forced me to update, so that’s a good thing. Right?

But anyway … if you’re new here, howdy; if you’re an old-timer, thanks for finding me.

An update … and a minor change. You may gasp now.

A few weeks ago, I got some inspiration from a column someone wrote on rpg.net and flung together an entirely new set of roleplaying rules.
I’ve you’ve ever wanted to play a LARP without having to wear those tacky black leather trenchcoats, now’s your chance. Give MetaHuman DL a look, and maybe, just maybe … it will change your life forever. Or at least give you something to do in between downloading Internet porn.

You know that disorder where people get distracted by pretty much anything which comes along? I think I have it. That’s why System DL still isn’t finished (but will be soon, honest). That’s why the brave new design for this site is still in the planning stages. That’s why I’ve been frittering my time away with computer animation tests instead of doing real work. I’m bad and I know it.